Draft 9

What i have seen cant be told,
when i remember that what i cant remember all,
the much i have done leads me to storms of acid feelings;
the things i made, the words i said but specially
all that i enjoyed by heart.

Maybe some things i still remember but mostly the completeness
went away.
Im not quiet sure if isn't alright that way
but thinking in all the things i have seen and done
there are many constants, many similarities so much i learned just to have an excuse
an excuse to give myself and die,
time after time giving myself again and...
for each thing i do, i ride them dreaming on,
All. all for the non changing and the passenger deal
that is quite the same business.
Life more often gets me questioning, not so much really but now once again.

E tutto, e niente.

I cant get free
from the small room
where
the last winter
left me,
the walls are
still
in front
of
me.

I dont really feel the cold waters,
im not ready yet to feel
im feeling im not
Im just asking where do i find the ocean,
don't believe is near, cant smell its fire
its crushing is missing;
Im just asking...
the answer might be surprising but im aware
in case.
Tunics of reason dont let me fall
or
im so holded to them,
scared to and scared of.
But i remember it well
as today my tears without pain
whistle the story of those days trapped in winter isolation and shadows;
so let me here with this
-i dont feel-
inside my small room facing the walls,
wondering about the waves
or
if its happening now...that,
that what I have been waiting my whole life;
finally see with my eyes something real and majestic,
Im just asking,
asking where do i find your ocean,
the one
im not ready yet to get
into.
Im just asking,
while i drink hope from the soul of some usual sounds,
maybe your voice, maybe the hole on my pockets...
and this disability to stop going around so waisted
theres no cure in so many options,
but still hopeless hope keeps burning me with questions
what if i just desapair the temptation to jump into the ocean ...
again
E tutto e niente , pensare che io voglia sapere così tanto,
Sto chiedendo...
E tutto e niente, pensato qui sono io quella ,
qui io sono per te la risposta per la domanda che tu state facendo...
Yo pregunto...

Little ones from Peru need your help!!!!

We have been sensitive to the needs of our closest, we didn’t go another country to spend our life for missions, Peru is full of kind people with open heart to anyone, the history and culture can describe so well what type of people we are but most of all this, Peruvians had to learn so much from hard times, corruption, war, terrorism, drug cartels, killing of innocents, bombs, economical bankrupts and long list, letting my people with only one thing from their own, their faith and hope in God.

The one who had lost all, who has no further opportunities, who had been victim for so long; for those ones who get along even though a broken life, they will easily recognize a treasure at once, instantly they will rush to hold it and be transformed by sense and meaning again.

God became Peruvians treasure; Revival is crowning the past suffering…. Revival from Peruvians to other Peruvians… Christians in church working together more than never in unity and love, believing that we will make it in Christ!

Here you can see and read some children´s cases who need help...Please keep them on your prayers! and if you would like to give them a economical gift(any amount is welcome:) please contact me!!!

This picture shows much of the significance of Hope's Shelter. The children learn to coexist and to have fun together without limitations.

This is Carlos and Benjamin! They're sitting in their mother's kiosk, and aren't they pretty? Carlos is setting such an example as a an older brother, he's always looking after his siblings. I'm praying for him, that the absence of his father will not affect his identity as man of God.

Anthony, Carlos (in red) and Lucas (in white). Carlos is David's elder brother, it was their father who left without saying why or for how long. Lucas doesn't have a father. His mother worked with selling food in the street, but one day she was run over. When I got to know her, she'd had two surgeries, to try get her hip to function. Her body didn't accept the nails, and it didn't work. She's now had 25 surgeries, and she has just started to get a little better, but she can't walk. Lucas is a very quiet boy, he doesn't speak much, but he's always smiling and he's such a good and gentle boy.

The brother in red's name is Damien. He, as the two generations preceeding him, is blind. His sons is also loosing their sight. His daughter need an operation in Lima before she's two, or she will lose her sight as well. The government has offered them the operation for free, they just need to go to Lima. His four-year old son Angel has not yet lost his sight, but they say that there isn't a chance to save his sight at this point.

I found out that Richard, a blind young guy in his desire to improve his life and pursue for a future, had left Pucallpa and come to Lima to attend to a Specialize School. They almost did not accept him because he is 25 years old and has not even elementary studies. But he got in.

Now I have to find him, because he came and has no winter clothes, nor money to pay the monthly payments after May. The Church in Pucallpa raised money to help him get here and make the first payments, but Richard's parents are farm workers that are hired by others. They don't even have their own land. Richard has an amazing musical ear. He plays the keyboard by ear and he accompanied some of our devotional times with teams last year.

And like him, I've had the opportunity to talk with some others who need just a chance to prove they want to do something more than sit and complain about life and society... or even the Church...

Anthony suffered an asphyxia during his birth which caused him a brain damage. He's 16 years old, and he lives in Hope's Shelter, in Pucallpa. He first learn to walk when he was 8 years old, and with therapy and exercise he has improved his walking. Now he doesn't haul himsef so much, and he doesn't make all the grimaces and he doesn't drool as much as he did just one year ago

All the girls here are pastor's daughters. The boy in the orange shorts is named David. He's the 3^rd of 4 boys, Carlos, Josué, David and Benjamin. Their mum has a disability regarding her feet, and she works in the (kiosk) in the Shelter's school. Their father was a good friend of ours, he cooked for us when we went to the Shelter. I just learned that he has gone to Lima, leaving them. We are praying that he will chose to return, or get in touch with his childeren. This family is really a family in need, because there are four sons, and that there father has left has chocked them.

The girl standing and smiling with the white blouse is called Angela. In January her mother gave birth, and died shortly afterwards from a medical malpractice. Her heart pressure was a bit high, but she was waiting for hours before anyone came to see her. The baby girl is now in the hospital, and the father is there with her to make sure she's looked after. He has left work to take care of her, and at home he has 3 other children.

The girl in pink is called Margarita. She doesn't have a father, just a mother, and a sister old enough to be my mother. She also lives in the Shelter, in a small room which is all the space they got. All they have is a bunk, a table and a commode.

Another picture of Anthony! This is from last year, it started to rain and he went to his room, and got a shampoo. Hauling himself he came to wash himself in the rain, making lots of fun. At present he walks better and he hauls himself less.

After party-latest info!!!!

Thanks once again to each one of you, Thanks for sharing your friday night at the party, Im deeply happy and very blessed by each one of you, everyone has a special place on my heart,
Thanks for the immense support trough all this time we enjoyed this wonderful friendship! In deed you really are a Special-Treasure in my life!!!

Im also happy to let you know that ur generous contribution will help a lot to the Peruvian kids you read and seen pictures about, we got to raise 2600kr for them :D YES!!!! The money will be send on Tuesday as well the cool and creative cards you made for them will be send!
Please keep them on your prayers, they really need it; and if theres anyone interested on help them further with money or in other way or if you want to keep updated just contact me again...

Thanks Dear God we bless and praise your name,
Thanks for the friendship we share,
Thanks you lead us together and let us grow cherishing one another!
Show us, use us Lord, Let us feel, dare and risk all for your cause,
We want to invest and spend our days accomplishing the plan you have for us!
Thanks for letting us bless those little ones from Peru, We pray you supply all their needs, all material, spiritual and emotional needs supply them in your abundant grace and love! We declare that new and prosperous times come for the needy, that healing will touch the sicks and that Peru and the whole world will declare you as Lord!!! Amen!!!